Cajun Witch

I have been feeling lately that my shadow work is not done.  I thought it done for a long time.  However, I've always had a feeling in the back of me that there was more.  I've felt for a while I have a past trauma, either from my childhood or my past lives, blocking me from progressing.  So, it is time to do more research and dive deeper. I'll admit I'm a bit scared.  The last workings took a lot out of me (the joys of shadow work + chronic illnesses).  But I know I need this.  It's needed not only to progress, but also to heal and grow.   Any tips?  A trip into shadow work is hard as heck, but I want to do it this time (last time it literally fell onto me like a house--pun intended).  Blessed Be.  

  How does one lose a whole order of stuff? Let me explain--I get a monthly subscription box from  https://tamedwild.com/  .  I got my order in a few days ago.  I know what was in the order.  I know I didn't dream it coming in because I have at least the charm sitting and waiting to be put on my bracelet. I have the empty box from me opening it.  But I can't find the rest of my box!  I have looked where I opened it.  I have looked around my altar.  I looked everywhere that I would possibly have placed the stuff.   I'm going to take a breath and a break from looking and chalk it up to me not needing the contents at the moment.  I just wish I could remember.  That's the biggest problem--the not remembering.  My brain doesn't work too great since I've had trigeminal neuralgia issues. But I do feel like I have been getting stronger from the witch standpoint.  I just wish my mental state would be improving along ...

Ah, back to a bit of Magick! First off, I did what I said I would and took the weekend to get back to me.  I meditated.  I lit candles.  I set intentions.  It all felt so good!  I am still working and progressing towards accepting what may be my new normal with my face, but it's a work in progress. Now, with two storms on my doorstep, I did a candle to help protect.  Dressing the candle and setting my intentions felt SOOOOOO nice.  Watching its burn and feeling as though I'm doing something right felt wonderful.  I won't go into detail about my intentions or the spell itself, for protective reasons.  But I used both herbs and oils that I looked up that are good for protection and for storm safety.  Since Marco doesn't seem to be much of a threat anymore, I'll do my offering for Nature tomorrow most likely to ask for protection from Laura.   I still have my Reiki practice on hold.  I know one of the first "rules" is you can...

  I know I'm  the worst at keeping up with my posting.  I apologize for that.  I have so much going on health wise that it's hard to make the time for blogging unfortunately.   Let me explain... For about a month and a half (maybe two--time doesn't keep with me) I've been dealing with having half of my face numb... Picture this--you drink a tube of Orajel on 1/2 your mouth.  Then, the numbness spreads to the rest of your head.  Oh, and once in a while, you stick your finger in an electric socket, just to keep the nerves alive. That's been my life.  I had an MRA (like an MRI but different somehow) and an ultrasound of my thyroid yesterday.  I also started a new medicine that's supposed to help with the whole electrical socket feeling.  I'm so over the whole thing.  I have still been studying and practicing.  I turn to conversations in front of my altar a lot.  I hope that doesn't make me crazy...er than usual. ...

I have decided to start posting my tarot practice here.  I think it will help me see how much I may progress in my learning and understanding.  Today I tried a new 3 card spread intention,              Strength/Struggle/Advice                                            Queen of Cups (reversed)/5 of Swords/10 of Cups (Reversed) QoC Reversed: Still compassionate, but can become a martyr when out of balance. 5 of Swords: Surrounded by mixed feelings.  It's good to voice your opinion, but also pick your battles. 10oC Reversed: Still striving for more.  Notice you have everything you need in this moment. My interpretation: I am compassionate.  However, I need to be aware to put myself and my feelings in mind when being compassionate. I am having mixed feelings about The Hubby living so far away.  Wh...

I have started studying herbs.  I am focused on learning natural ways to better my health.  My top two issues, Fibromyalgia and Hashimotos, takes their toll all the time.  Most medicines I've tried have little to no effect.   Don't worry, everything herbal I use is legal, so don't run to sound any alarms.  And the most of my herbal intake will be topical or teas.  However, I'm not opposed to making smokeable herbal blends. In the end, I need relief.  I'm forever in pain.  There are days that I can't remember the simplest things.  I'm so just so tired. Now that I'm living w/just my kids (The Hubby is out of state for work) I have to be able to step up more.  I have to be there for my kids and be strong enough to make it through. Herbs, oils, meditation--these are things I can do to help myself through.  I am amazed at all I'm learning.  And hopefully one day I'll be able to share it all with you.

I haven't posted anything on social media about what's going on in the world around us.  Some people see that as not caring or hating on things.  Trust me, it isn't. Every moment I feel the pain around me.  I feel it all.  I'm an Empath.  It's draining.  I find myself crying when I'm not knowing why.  It all hurts.  It all effects me.   I can't and won't state my feelings online.  All I can say is, while so many other witches are hexing tonight, I will not.  I will, if anything, use any strength I do have for healing.  That's my gift.  That's my job.   So that is what you'll get from me.  If you think this makes me a bad person or biased or racist or whatever, that's your choice.   This is my choice. I choose healing.  I choose love.  I choose life.  

I think that title diminishes how big of a shift I had yesterday. First off, we woke up bright and early and went fishing in the Gulf.  I was exhausted because we moved The Girl out of her dorm Friday.  However, I knew the water and wind would help me.  And boy, did it!  I enjoyed every wave.  Each splash in my face awakened me.  The wind swirling around me cleansed me.  I felt so much peace. Then, the horror of my evening.  I thought The Boy's dog peed on my floor.  For the record, that's how she retaliates.  And for two days in a row we weren't home to let her be free in the house.  My anxiety broke when I requested The Hubby's help and he didn't come straight away.  Then, when I tried to apologize, he made it worse.  He got short with me, threw down some things to get them out the way of the mess, and made a mess of my altar area.  I felt like I was the one thrown on the wall.  I broke.  I curled up i...

So, for the second day in a row, I feel pretty bad.  My brain is still mush.  My nerve endings are tingly all over.  I feel pretty nauseous.  I know it's not me being actually sick because  A.  The nerve thing and B.  The nausea doesn't stop me from eating. I didn't meditate today.  I know, that doesn't help me any.  I napped so much this afternoon that kind of took the place of it.  Also, when I woke up from my nap, my nerves were charged and I struggled to move. I had to ignore how I'm feeling this morning.  The Hubby had an appointment in NOLA to be cleared for travel.  He had to get his eyes dilated, so I had to go with.  I'm happy to report he can travel. Tomorrow I have to yet again ignore how I'm feeling.  We have to travel to Natchitoches to gather the girl child's things from her school.  That's a 4 hour ride both ways.  I hope I can take it.   I hope this doesn't last.  The...

I woke up feeling quite off today.  I'm not sure why.  It's almost like I'm tired but not sleepy.  My brain feels sluggish.  It's almost like I'm a walking zombie.  I'd say it's my depression, but it doesn't feel like my depression.  Even putting thoughts together for this blog has me struggling. What can it be?  I know I need to ask my Oracle Cards for advice.  I just fear I won't be able to focus my intention to them. Does anyone have advice/thoughts? Is anyone out there that actually follows me? Hello?

Something I've learned is many witches find a name as their Witch Name.  It's a form of both protection and expression.  I don't know if I posted about this in the past, and I'm in no mood to go explore, so bare with me. I had a couple of names sticking with me.  One for a long time, but I'll soon explain why I didn't know if I wanted to answer its calling.  The other was Ginny.  It's kind of a play on my name, which would make it easy to closet.  Also, because of its closeness to my given name, it had the same definition as my name.  I lived with it for a couple weeks now.  I liked, it but it didn't make me happy or however I thought I should feel. Then there's this--Harley.  I love this name.  And yes, it's because of one Ms. Harley Quinn.  I've always been drawn to her.  She's super smart but dangerous.  I don't know why I like her so much, but I do--enough to own many Harley items.  But that's just it--it's a ...

Ah, Insomnia... I have not spent time with you in quite a long time. However, here I am, up since 1AM, unable to get back to sleep. Some people haven't even gone to bed yet! I had this problem more often before my hysterectomy.  I'd get up in the wee hours of the morning for a bathroom visit and I wouldn't be able to get back to sleep.  So, while this is nothing really new for me, it's not my norm anymore. So, I'll sit here, drink a warm beverage, and do some research.  At least I can be somewhat productive with this added time to my day without waking anyone else. However, moments like this make me wish my altar wasn't in the bedroom so I could make something that would maybe help me get back to sleep....

So something I found amusing but terrifying happened to me the other day and I thought I'd share because I'm sure I'm not the only one.... As per one of my recent posts, I attempted smoking an herb the other day out of desperation for pain relief of any sort.  And no, it's not the herb most  of you may think of straight off the bat, so there.  Well, Saturday, I was saging the house, and some of the said herb's residue was still in the thing I use to keep myself from dropping burning embers all over the place while I cleanse.  So the house smelled heavy of many burning herbs.  Yes, the windows were open--the weather was SO nice Saturday that the windows stayed open all day--lovely treat for May in South Louisiana! Anyway, no sooner I get the smoke going all over the place, my phone rings--it's my parents.  They wanted to stop by for a little visit since they were already in the area.  Great, now I smell like smoke, the house smells like I'm trying t...

On a Facebook group, I asked if others use Instagram or TikTok.  I enjoy seeing witchy things in both worlds.   Y'all...the responses... Someone said that TT is from China and they don't trust it.  Uh....like they're not already watching all of us.  I get it, China spying is bad.  But they are already.  And I don't post anything of importance on the app.  In fact, the person in charge of spying on me is most likely more worried about my well being rather than gathering intel. So, here it goes.  I have an Instagram account you can follow.  The username is Cajunpassion.  It's for witchiness, but also for my stuff I make AND LGNT+ Ally.   I also have that evil TikTok.  @ginny_ahnah Neither of those are of great importance.  About as much is seen as this blog, which is not at all.  I use them more to see others rather than have others see me. So, if you're bored to tears and want to follow me, please ...

Strange things I've said/done since starting this journey: ~collecting yarn, even though I can't sew ~transferring herbs to and from my room/kitchen ~Saying good morning to the tree in my yard, the plants my daughter is growing, the spider that I'm terrified of in my mailbox ~Saying aloud, "Damn, that was a sign," hours after something happens ~mentally debating if I should get a jar for the rainwater when it's falling ~changing clothes just to do something witchy and then back again ~arguing with myself about whether there's something in my dream that's important ~taking pics of random grass and weeds to look up if they're important ~going to the store for one thing, and leaving with many many others.  And, when questioned, simply saying, "because witchy." I'm sure there are more...I may add more as I go.  These just popped in my head while reading another's page. Be blessed.

Yesterday was strange. First off, from the moment I woke up, I heard voices (in my head).  Something/someone was saying something....almost muffled yelling...but I couldn't understand it.  I tried meditating.  I tried mindful sitting.  I just couldn't get it. To be fair, I have been asking lately that my guardians come to me in my dreams.  Instead of that happening, I've been having repetitive dreams from when I was younger.  I used to have these 3-5 same dreams all the time.  They're all about people in my past/past relationships.  They're all fictional events.  But now they're back. I can't shake this feeling that something is calling to me.  Something or someone is trying to tell me something, and I don't know how to hear it. ~~~~~ Now, for the "signs" title.  We were taking the boat out yesterday for the first time.  It's an old boat that The Hubby has worked a lot on, and Saturday he got it up and running fin...

You ever get that feeling?    That feeling that, and you have no idea why, but something is a GREAT idea you MUST do NOW? I got that this morning. I pulled out a pot and filled it with water.  I then added orange and lemon slices as it started heating up.  I then went to my herbs and pulled rosemary, thyme, and sage and tossed them in!  While this process began, a song came on KPPR Pure Pagan Radio  (in case you want to check it out).  I looked it up,  Firebird's Child  and had to upload it to my playlist.  It moved me, and I put on some "witchy" clothes I've scrounged up.  I danced and sang.  I lit sage and spun around in the smoke.  I chanted and told any bad vibes in my home to be gone.  It was wonderful! I haven't moved like that in a very long time.  I feel so free and happy...and sweaty (But that's what happens when you don't move much).   I don't know if it was a witchy thing to other, o...

Oh, how the world has changed since I started this journey.  I feel as though that's why I found this part of me when I did.  I needed to change myself so I could handle the changing world.  I know I wouldn't be so well off if I hadn't changed.  I just can tell my anxiety would be getting the better of me much more often.  Earthy-existence can be quite frightening right now.  But most days I'm calm.  In fact, I think I've had only one anxiety-stricken moment....   I spend most of my days at home now.  Lou is on her last week of online classes.  I spend many moments of my days doing and saying little things to keep The Boy and The Hubby safe since they are "essential."  I cook and read and learn to love the moments of nothing throughout my day.  I am spending a LOT more time outside just existing.   I don't craft as much as I did at the beginning of my journey.  I can't just go out to the store daily...

So my day went better yesterday once I vented.  Thanks for that. After my blogging, I went outside and did some weeding around part of our driveway (it's HUGE, so I couldn't get it all done in one day).  I then drank some tea, meditated, and cleaned around the house some.  And, in that time, made peace with all that was troubling me. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I ordered some witchy things the other day.  Once every couple of months I add to my collection.  I am SO glad these things came in when they did!  I'll post links and pictures once my phone gets off of punishment (it hasn't been keeping a charge at all). The place I ordered from is here --  Magick Planet So, I ordered two ADORABLE little dragons to add to my decor around my altar space I FINALLY bit the bullet and got myself a mortar and pestle.  I am SO stoked about this purchase.  I've looked for months for just the right thing. I got a new Oracle deck!  I have only heard thing...

Ah, the boredom.   The fairies garden is the only place I don't feel the boredom.  I'm either pulling grass and weeds, making something new for it, or researching how to make plants happier.  I have a black thumb, but I'm determined.  I never thought I'd feel so connected to the outdoors again.  We went fishing the other day (yes, I know we should stay home).  I needed the outdoors and peace.  It was so quiet, and the air was so fresh. Staying away from people isn't a problem for me.  I love the solitude and being surrounded by my family.  My daughter is home from boarding school for good until either Summer school or next semester.  Sadly, my son and husband still have to work.  I'm glad for the income, because so many are without and that'd add stress to an already thin balance.  However, with my suppressed immune system self, it's kind of scary. I have made my protections.  I often do little things to ma...