Cajun Witch

I woke up feeling bad this morning.  My stomach has been turning and gurgling since around 2 AM.  I decided to call in to work.  I spent pretty much all morning in bed hoping not to puke.   Around midmorning, I decided to get up and attempt to feel better.  I made myself some stomach ease tea and toast and set myself up at my altar.  I lit my candles and pulled a health and healing Oracle card.  Then, decided to make and light a small health candle in  an attempt to let this pass swiftly. All the while, I had music playing, as I so often do.  Music helps me clear out any unnecessary thoughts while I'm in my safe space.  I found this new (to me) artist, Lila, and downloaded her instrumental album--if you don't know it find it! Anyway, one of her songs came on, and it made me sit still and close my eyes, almost like in meditation.  Well, something drew me to open my eyes only slightly--the flame of my candle.  It's...

  How does one lose a whole order of stuff? Let me explain--I get a monthly subscription box from  https://tamedwild.com/  .  I got my order in a few days ago.  I know what was in the order.  I know I didn't dream it coming in because I have at least the charm sitting and waiting to be put on my bracelet. I have the empty box from me opening it.  But I can't find the rest of my box!  I have looked where I opened it.  I have looked around my altar.  I looked everywhere that I would possibly have placed the stuff.   I'm going to take a breath and a break from looking and chalk it up to me not needing the contents at the moment.  I just wish I could remember.  That's the biggest problem--the not remembering.  My brain doesn't work too great since I've had trigeminal neuralgia issues. But I do feel like I have been getting stronger from the witch standpoint.  I just wish my mental state would be improving along ...

Ah, back to a bit of Magick! First off, I did what I said I would and took the weekend to get back to me.  I meditated.  I lit candles.  I set intentions.  It all felt so good!  I am still working and progressing towards accepting what may be my new normal with my face, but it's a work in progress. Now, with two storms on my doorstep, I did a candle to help protect.  Dressing the candle and setting my intentions felt SOOOOOO nice.  Watching its burn and feeling as though I'm doing something right felt wonderful.  I won't go into detail about my intentions or the spell itself, for protective reasons.  But I used both herbs and oils that I looked up that are good for protection and for storm safety.  Since Marco doesn't seem to be much of a threat anymore, I'll do my offering for Nature tomorrow most likely to ask for protection from Laura.   I still have my Reiki practice on hold.  I know one of the first "rules" is you can...

Well, it seems I have my diagnosis.  The doctor is confident it's Trigeminal neuralgia and neuropathy.     Those may not be spelled correctly.   It gets better--all of my tests were normal, which is a good thing.  However, it also means that there is no real reason as to why this started.   It gets even better--the doctor, although trying to stay positive for her patient, didn't give much hope.  She more or less said things may fade but they'll come back.  She also said that the numbness will prolly not go away. I don't think I've processed it all just yet.  I do know I was overly angry yesterday at the world.  I hated that.  I put out way too much negativity into the universe.   I go from anger to depression to nothing in moments.  And in between is pain and my brain not thinking.  I keep telling myself to just be normal.  But all of this stuff is neurological--it's brain stuff.  How can...

  I'm so very over this.   My newest symptom:  I feel as though the left side of my face is in a bucket of  ice water.   I know in my head it isn't cold.  I touch the area and it isn't cold.  But this FEELING of cold is making me MISERABLE!  I can't even think well enough to get sentences out.   Don't worry, I did message the doctor: "Please continue taking notes and we'll discuss at your appointment on Thursday." What the actual hell?   So I guess this is my life now.  Every few weeks I'll get a new fun surprise symptom of this thing going on in my face that we don't know the cause of.   And, as MUCH as I want to read and practice, I can't.  I can barely focus enough to type out my thoughts right now.  Meditation doesn't happen.  Reading tires my eye too quickly.  And a coworker/friend said my new meds make me look high at work--lovely! I think I want to crawl in a (very warm) hole ...

  I know I'm  the worst at keeping up with my posting.  I apologize for that.  I have so much going on health wise that it's hard to make the time for blogging unfortunately.   Let me explain... For about a month and a half (maybe two--time doesn't keep with me) I've been dealing with having half of my face numb... Picture this--you drink a tube of Orajel on 1/2 your mouth.  Then, the numbness spreads to the rest of your head.  Oh, and once in a while, you stick your finger in an electric socket, just to keep the nerves alive. That's been my life.  I had an MRA (like an MRI but different somehow) and an ultrasound of my thyroid yesterday.  I also started a new medicine that's supposed to help with the whole electrical socket feeling.  I'm so over the whole thing.  I have still been studying and practicing.  I turn to conversations in front of my altar a lot.  I hope that doesn't make me crazy...er than usual. ...

I have returned from our long journey in Minnesota.  We drove there, moved my husband in, spent time adventuring, and drove home.  We have been home for a couple of days, and I'm still exhausted! So much happened in the past few weeks... I fell more in love with Minnesota My daughter lost a dear friend I struggled with my depression knowing I'd have to leave my husband there I was outdoors more than I've been since I was a kid I also found it hard to be a witch up there...mostly because most of my books and things were down south.  I did my daily card pull from my Oracles still...and 9 out of 10 I pulled the "well being" card.  I know now that it was fussing me.  I didn't put myself first up there very much.  I wanted my daughter to get the most out of our time.  It became even more important after her friend took his life.   A child should never have to struggle with such loss.  I was so worried about her.  She went into id...

This isn't totally witch-focused... But this is my outlet my way, so here I am. I am a fat Cajun gal who is really good at cooking and eating.  In 10 days, we are traveling to Detroit Lakes, MN for about a month.  There's so much beauty and nature there.  And, at the health I'm in, I won't be able to enjoy it all.  So I've been trying to be a little more active.  I'll be the first to admit this Coronacation has made me very sedentary.  Other than fishing, I haven't done much physical stuff. Yesterday I was going to start watching what I eat.  And, in true fashion, my body went, "EAT ALL THE THINGS!!!"  I had a hysterectomy in December, but I swear I still get moments of PMS.  Add to that The Girl being an AMAZING baker that just happened to make a coconut cream cake last night--diet fail!!! So, I'm at a crossroads.  Do I continue to only try to move more?  Do I ignore the cake and eat healthy?  ....Yeah, that won't happ...

So, for the second day in a row, I feel pretty bad.  My brain is still mush.  My nerve endings are tingly all over.  I feel pretty nauseous.  I know it's not me being actually sick because  A.  The nerve thing and B.  The nausea doesn't stop me from eating. I didn't meditate today.  I know, that doesn't help me any.  I napped so much this afternoon that kind of took the place of it.  Also, when I woke up from my nap, my nerves were charged and I struggled to move. I had to ignore how I'm feeling this morning.  The Hubby had an appointment in NOLA to be cleared for travel.  He had to get his eyes dilated, so I had to go with.  I'm happy to report he can travel. Tomorrow I have to yet again ignore how I'm feeling.  We have to travel to Natchitoches to gather the girl child's things from her school.  That's a 4 hour ride both ways.  I hope I can take it.   I hope this doesn't last.  The...

I woke up feeling quite off today.  I'm not sure why.  It's almost like I'm tired but not sleepy.  My brain feels sluggish.  It's almost like I'm a walking zombie.  I'd say it's my depression, but it doesn't feel like my depression.  Even putting thoughts together for this blog has me struggling. What can it be?  I know I need to ask my Oracle Cards for advice.  I just fear I won't be able to focus my intention to them. Does anyone have advice/thoughts? Is anyone out there that actually follows me? Hello?

So something I found amusing but terrifying happened to me the other day and I thought I'd share because I'm sure I'm not the only one.... As per one of my recent posts, I attempted smoking an herb the other day out of desperation for pain relief of any sort.  And no, it's not the herb most  of you may think of straight off the bat, so there.  Well, Saturday, I was saging the house, and some of the said herb's residue was still in the thing I use to keep myself from dropping burning embers all over the place while I cleanse.  So the house smelled heavy of many burning herbs.  Yes, the windows were open--the weather was SO nice Saturday that the windows stayed open all day--lovely treat for May in South Louisiana! Anyway, no sooner I get the smoke going all over the place, my phone rings--it's my parents.  They wanted to stop by for a little visit since they were already in the area.  Great, now I smell like smoke, the house smells like I'm trying t...

So let me tell you a story. This evening, I decided to partake in herbal uses.   Hey, I'm a witch.  My altar's shelves are filled with different herbs.  And yes, some you can ingest. I took a bath after.  As I'm laying there, soaking, something hits me.   I.  Have.  No.  Pain. Zero...like on a pain scale at the doctor's office, I'd be a 1. I cried.  I sobbed.  I don't honestly know the last time I felt no pain.  I have done so many healing spells on others and myself.  And, although I'm happy to say most of my spells for others work, my self work doesn't seem to.  So to say this is a HUGE deal for me is an understatement.   I have been in pain for so long.  There are days that I struggle to get out of bed, but I do it, and I work through the pain.  There are other days that I feel like a total waste of space because out of bed is my only accomplishment. You can say witchcraft is...

Ah, the boredom.   The fairies garden is the only place I don't feel the boredom.  I'm either pulling grass and weeds, making something new for it, or researching how to make plants happier.  I have a black thumb, but I'm determined.  I never thought I'd feel so connected to the outdoors again.  We went fishing the other day (yes, I know we should stay home).  I needed the outdoors and peace.  It was so quiet, and the air was so fresh. Staying away from people isn't a problem for me.  I love the solitude and being surrounded by my family.  My daughter is home from boarding school for good until either Summer school or next semester.  Sadly, my son and husband still have to work.  I'm glad for the income, because so many are without and that'd add stress to an already thin balance.  However, with my suppressed immune system self, it's kind of scary. I have made my protections.  I often do little things to ma...

I come to you today from my back yard.  It's going to be another really hot day in South LA.  However, with the breeze as it is, nature called to me.  I was going to write from my altar today...let's just call this another altar. I had the Pagean radio station blaring for a while.  I turned it off now.  The birds are so vocal this morning!  The crickets are telling me the temperature.  I am blessed to live in a country setting.  Sure, I still hear the neighbor's dogs barking and the other neighbor yelling a his dog....but it's so peaceful nonetheless. Oh...and I can't forget the cat that's been my shadow the past week... This whole virus thing has had me thinking so much more lately.  My son works in a store that is considered essential.  My husband works in a profession also labeled as such.  So they're exposed daily.  My daughter is home from boarding school.  She and I spend most days in the house.  Thankfu...