Cajun Witch

I have been feeling lately that my shadow work is not done.  I thought it done for a long time.  However, I've always had a feeling in the back of me that there was more.  I've felt for a while I have a past trauma, either from my childhood or my past lives, blocking me from progressing.  So, it is time to do more research and dive deeper. I'll admit I'm a bit scared.  The last workings took a lot out of me (the joys of shadow work + chronic illnesses).  But I know I need this.  It's needed not only to progress, but also to heal and grow.   Any tips?  A trip into shadow work is hard as heck, but I want to do it this time (last time it literally fell onto me like a house--pun intended).  Blessed Be.  

I keep a dream log.  It, like most things, are not consistent.  But y'all...I don't know if this was a dream... After work, I tend to lie down for about an hour.  Sometimes I sleep, but usually it's more a time to rest my mind and ease any stressors I may have brought home.   Yesterday was no exception.  I laid down on my bed.  My cat quickly jumped on my chest, which he tends to do when I've had a particularly stressful day.  I've been exhausted lately, so I went into saying positive affirmations about have more energy.  I don't know how long I was there with my eyes closed, because I never felt myself drift off or anything.  But when I opened my eyes, my cat wasn't there.  I mean, he was there--the weight, size, shape.  But instead of my tabby cat, I saw this red and black grid thing.  I don't know how else to explain it.  It freaked me out so much that I shoved him off of me.  He scratched my belly a little on...