Cajun Witch

Well, it seems I have my diagnosis.  The doctor is confident it's Trigeminal neuralgia and neuropathy.     Those may not be spelled correctly.   It gets better--all of my tests were normal, which is a good thing.  However, it also means that there is no real reason as to why this started.   It gets even better--the doctor, although trying to stay positive for her patient, didn't give much hope.  She more or less said things may fade but they'll come back.  She also said that the numbness will prolly not go away. I don't think I've processed it all just yet.  I do know I was overly angry yesterday at the world.  I hated that.  I put out way too much negativity into the universe.   I go from anger to depression to nothing in moments.  And in between is pain and my brain not thinking.  I keep telling myself to just be normal.  But all of this stuff is neurological--it's brain stuff.  How can...

  I'm so very over this.   My newest symptom:  I feel as though the left side of my face is in a bucket of  ice water.   I know in my head it isn't cold.  I touch the area and it isn't cold.  But this FEELING of cold is making me MISERABLE!  I can't even think well enough to get sentences out.   Don't worry, I did message the doctor: "Please continue taking notes and we'll discuss at your appointment on Thursday." What the actual hell?   So I guess this is my life now.  Every few weeks I'll get a new fun surprise symptom of this thing going on in my face that we don't know the cause of.   And, as MUCH as I want to read and practice, I can't.  I can barely focus enough to type out my thoughts right now.  Meditation doesn't happen.  Reading tires my eye too quickly.  And a coworker/friend said my new meds make me look high at work--lovely! I think I want to crawl in a (very warm) hole ...

I have started studying herbs.  I am focused on learning natural ways to better my health.  My top two issues, Fibromyalgia and Hashimotos, takes their toll all the time.  Most medicines I've tried have little to no effect.   Don't worry, everything herbal I use is legal, so don't run to sound any alarms.  And the most of my herbal intake will be topical or teas.  However, I'm not opposed to making smokeable herbal blends. In the end, I need relief.  I'm forever in pain.  There are days that I can't remember the simplest things.  I'm so just so tired. Now that I'm living w/just my kids (The Hubby is out of state for work) I have to be able to step up more.  I have to be there for my kids and be strong enough to make it through. Herbs, oils, meditation--these are things I can do to help myself through.  I am amazed at all I'm learning.  And hopefully one day I'll be able to share it all with you.

So, for the second day in a row, I feel pretty bad.  My brain is still mush.  My nerve endings are tingly all over.  I feel pretty nauseous.  I know it's not me being actually sick because  A.  The nerve thing and B.  The nausea doesn't stop me from eating. I didn't meditate today.  I know, that doesn't help me any.  I napped so much this afternoon that kind of took the place of it.  Also, when I woke up from my nap, my nerves were charged and I struggled to move. I had to ignore how I'm feeling this morning.  The Hubby had an appointment in NOLA to be cleared for travel.  He had to get his eyes dilated, so I had to go with.  I'm happy to report he can travel. Tomorrow I have to yet again ignore how I'm feeling.  We have to travel to Natchitoches to gather the girl child's things from her school.  That's a 4 hour ride both ways.  I hope I can take it.   I hope this doesn't last.  The...

So something I found amusing but terrifying happened to me the other day and I thought I'd share because I'm sure I'm not the only one.... As per one of my recent posts, I attempted smoking an herb the other day out of desperation for pain relief of any sort.  And no, it's not the herb most  of you may think of straight off the bat, so there.  Well, Saturday, I was saging the house, and some of the said herb's residue was still in the thing I use to keep myself from dropping burning embers all over the place while I cleanse.  So the house smelled heavy of many burning herbs.  Yes, the windows were open--the weather was SO nice Saturday that the windows stayed open all day--lovely treat for May in South Louisiana! Anyway, no sooner I get the smoke going all over the place, my phone rings--it's my parents.  They wanted to stop by for a little visit since they were already in the area.  Great, now I smell like smoke, the house smells like I'm trying t...

So let me tell you a story. This evening, I decided to partake in herbal uses.   Hey, I'm a witch.  My altar's shelves are filled with different herbs.  And yes, some you can ingest. I took a bath after.  As I'm laying there, soaking, something hits me.   I.  Have.  No.  Pain. Zero...like on a pain scale at the doctor's office, I'd be a 1. I cried.  I sobbed.  I don't honestly know the last time I felt no pain.  I have done so many healing spells on others and myself.  And, although I'm happy to say most of my spells for others work, my self work doesn't seem to.  So to say this is a HUGE deal for me is an understatement.   I have been in pain for so long.  There are days that I struggle to get out of bed, but I do it, and I work through the pain.  There are other days that I feel like a total waste of space because out of bed is my only accomplishment. You can say witchcraft is...