Cajun Witch

  How does one lose a whole order of stuff? Let me explain--I get a monthly subscription box from  https://tamedwild.com/  .  I got my order in a few days ago.  I know what was in the order.  I know I didn't dream it coming in because I have at least the charm sitting and waiting to be put on my bracelet. I have the empty box from me opening it.  But I can't find the rest of my box!  I have looked where I opened it.  I have looked around my altar.  I looked everywhere that I would possibly have placed the stuff.   I'm going to take a breath and a break from looking and chalk it up to me not needing the contents at the moment.  I just wish I could remember.  That's the biggest problem--the not remembering.  My brain doesn't work too great since I've had trigeminal neuralgia issues. But I do feel like I have been getting stronger from the witch standpoint.  I just wish my mental state would be improving along ...

Well, it seems I have my diagnosis.  The doctor is confident it's Trigeminal neuralgia and neuropathy.     Those may not be spelled correctly.   It gets better--all of my tests were normal, which is a good thing.  However, it also means that there is no real reason as to why this started.   It gets even better--the doctor, although trying to stay positive for her patient, didn't give much hope.  She more or less said things may fade but they'll come back.  She also said that the numbness will prolly not go away. I don't think I've processed it all just yet.  I do know I was overly angry yesterday at the world.  I hated that.  I put out way too much negativity into the universe.   I go from anger to depression to nothing in moments.  And in between is pain and my brain not thinking.  I keep telling myself to just be normal.  But all of this stuff is neurological--it's brain stuff.  How can...