Cajun Witch

Well, it seems I have my diagnosis.  The doctor is confident it's Trigeminal neuralgia and neuropathy.     Those may not be spelled correctly.   It gets better--all of my tests were normal, which is a good thing.  However, it also means that there is no real reason as to why this started.   It gets even better--the doctor, although trying to stay positive for her patient, didn't give much hope.  She more or less said things may fade but they'll come back.  She also said that the numbness will prolly not go away. I don't think I've processed it all just yet.  I do know I was overly angry yesterday at the world.  I hated that.  I put out way too much negativity into the universe.   I go from anger to depression to nothing in moments.  And in between is pain and my brain not thinking.  I keep telling myself to just be normal.  But all of this stuff is neurological--it's brain stuff.  How can...

  I'm so very over this.   My newest symptom:  I feel as though the left side of my face is in a bucket of  ice water.   I know in my head it isn't cold.  I touch the area and it isn't cold.  But this FEELING of cold is making me MISERABLE!  I can't even think well enough to get sentences out.   Don't worry, I did message the doctor: "Please continue taking notes and we'll discuss at your appointment on Thursday." What the actual hell?   So I guess this is my life now.  Every few weeks I'll get a new fun surprise symptom of this thing going on in my face that we don't know the cause of.   And, as MUCH as I want to read and practice, I can't.  I can barely focus enough to type out my thoughts right now.  Meditation doesn't happen.  Reading tires my eye too quickly.  And a coworker/friend said my new meds make me look high at work--lovely! I think I want to crawl in a (very warm) hole ...

I have started studying herbs.  I am focused on learning natural ways to better my health.  My top two issues, Fibromyalgia and Hashimotos, takes their toll all the time.  Most medicines I've tried have little to no effect.   Don't worry, everything herbal I use is legal, so don't run to sound any alarms.  And the most of my herbal intake will be topical or teas.  However, I'm not opposed to making smokeable herbal blends. In the end, I need relief.  I'm forever in pain.  There are days that I can't remember the simplest things.  I'm so just so tired. Now that I'm living w/just my kids (The Hubby is out of state for work) I have to be able to step up more.  I have to be there for my kids and be strong enough to make it through. Herbs, oils, meditation--these are things I can do to help myself through.  I am amazed at all I'm learning.  And hopefully one day I'll be able to share it all with you.

I think that title diminishes how big of a shift I had yesterday. First off, we woke up bright and early and went fishing in the Gulf.  I was exhausted because we moved The Girl out of her dorm Friday.  However, I knew the water and wind would help me.  And boy, did it!  I enjoyed every wave.  Each splash in my face awakened me.  The wind swirling around me cleansed me.  I felt so much peace. Then, the horror of my evening.  I thought The Boy's dog peed on my floor.  For the record, that's how she retaliates.  And for two days in a row we weren't home to let her be free in the house.  My anxiety broke when I requested The Hubby's help and he didn't come straight away.  Then, when I tried to apologize, he made it worse.  He got short with me, threw down some things to get them out the way of the mess, and made a mess of my altar area.  I felt like I was the one thrown on the wall.  I broke.  I curled up i...

Something I've learned is many witches find a name as their Witch Name.  It's a form of both protection and expression.  I don't know if I posted about this in the past, and I'm in no mood to go explore, so bare with me. I had a couple of names sticking with me.  One for a long time, but I'll soon explain why I didn't know if I wanted to answer its calling.  The other was Ginny.  It's kind of a play on my name, which would make it easy to closet.  Also, because of its closeness to my given name, it had the same definition as my name.  I lived with it for a couple weeks now.  I liked, it but it didn't make me happy or however I thought I should feel. Then there's this--Harley.  I love this name.  And yes, it's because of one Ms. Harley Quinn.  I've always been drawn to her.  She's super smart but dangerous.  I don't know why I like her so much, but I do--enough to own many Harley items.  But that's just it--it's a ...

So my day went better yesterday once I vented.  Thanks for that. After my blogging, I went outside and did some weeding around part of our driveway (it's HUGE, so I couldn't get it all done in one day).  I then drank some tea, meditated, and cleaned around the house some.  And, in that time, made peace with all that was troubling me. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I ordered some witchy things the other day.  Once every couple of months I add to my collection.  I am SO glad these things came in when they did!  I'll post links and pictures once my phone gets off of punishment (it hasn't been keeping a charge at all). The place I ordered from is here --  Magick Planet So, I ordered two ADORABLE little dragons to add to my decor around my altar space I FINALLY bit the bullet and got myself a mortar and pestle.  I am SO stoked about this purchase.  I've looked for months for just the right thing. I got a new Oracle deck!  I have only heard thing...

I come to you today from my back yard.  It's going to be another really hot day in South LA.  However, with the breeze as it is, nature called to me.  I was going to write from my altar today...let's just call this another altar. I had the Pagean radio station blaring for a while.  I turned it off now.  The birds are so vocal this morning!  The crickets are telling me the temperature.  I am blessed to live in a country setting.  Sure, I still hear the neighbor's dogs barking and the other neighbor yelling a his dog....but it's so peaceful nonetheless. Oh...and I can't forget the cat that's been my shadow the past week... This whole virus thing has had me thinking so much more lately.  My son works in a store that is considered essential.  My husband works in a profession also labeled as such.  So they're exposed daily.  My daughter is home from boarding school.  She and I spend most days in the house.  Thankfu...