Pure Joy

So let me tell you a story.

 This evening, I decided to partake in herbal uses.  
Hey, I'm a witch.  My altar's shelves are filled with different herbs.  And yes, some you can ingest.

 I took a bath after.  As I'm laying there, soaking, something hits me.  

 I.  Have.  No.  Pain.

 Zero...like on a pain scale at the doctor's office, I'd be a 1.

 I cried.  I sobbed.  I don't honestly know the last time I felt no pain.  I have done so many healing spells on others and myself.  And, although I'm happy to say most of my spells for others work, my self work doesn't seem to.  So to say this is a HUGE deal for me is an understatement.  

 I have been in pain for so long.  There are days that I struggle to get out of bed, but I do it, and I work through the pain.  There are other days that I feel like a total waste of space because out of bed is my only accomplishment.

 You can say witchcraft is fake.  You can say I'm going to Hell (PS, I don't believe in Hell, so....).  You can say I'm crazy (got one right).  But if I hadn't started this path, I would have never started learning about herbs and weeds that can be used for medicinal purposes.  I would have never started gathering different items to place in my practice.  And, it's quite possible that I would have never felt the sensation of being pain free.  I don't want this feeling to go away...

 Blessed Be.

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