Still Not Witchy

 I'm so very over this.  

My newest symptom:  I feel as though the left side of my face is in a bucket of  ice water.  

I know in my head it isn't cold.  I touch the area and it isn't cold.  But this FEELING of cold is making me MISERABLE!  I can't even think well enough to get sentences out.  

Don't worry, I did message the doctor:
"Please continue taking notes and we'll discuss at your appointment on Thursday."

What the actual hell?  

So I guess this is my life now.  Every few weeks I'll get a new fun surprise symptom of this thing going on in my face that we don't know the cause of.  

And, as MUCH as I want to read and practice, I can't.  I can barely focus enough to type out my thoughts right now.  Meditation doesn't happen.  Reading tires my eye too quickly.  And a coworker/friend said my new meds make me look high at work--lovely!

I think I want to crawl in a (very warm) hole now...

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