Calling

1.24.2020
Am I weird?

What am I saying, of COURSE I'm weird. 

 I'm on bed rest for 24 hours right now.  After the past month of healing, having a setback drives me mad.  But today hasn't been terrible thus far.

 I tried to do a 12 hour fast.  That didn't last.  Doesn't exactly mix well with insulin resistance.  Oh well, I was at least able to try a few of my teas.  I also made it a point to not overeat.  It's the little things, right?

 I also did something earlier that was in the box checked for weirdness.  I took all of my pillows on the sofa and the bed and made a bed in front of my altar.  I felt like the altar was calling me.  I don't know how else to explain it.  I lit my health candle and meditated a bit.  I then played some healing Mhz sounds and fell right asleep.  I only slept for an hour or two, but it was amazing.  

 In all of this, I felt better.  I feel better.  I feel relaxed and just--present.

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