Cajun Witch

I have been feeling lately that my shadow work is not done.  I thought it done for a long time.  However, I've always had a feeling in the back of me that there was more.  I've felt for a while I have a past trauma, either from my childhood or my past lives, blocking me from progressing.  So, it is time to do more research and dive deeper. I'll admit I'm a bit scared.  The last workings took a lot out of me (the joys of shadow work + chronic illnesses).  But I know I need this.  It's needed not only to progress, but also to heal and grow.   Any tips?  A trip into shadow work is hard as heck, but I want to do it this time (last time it literally fell onto me like a house--pun intended).  Blessed Be.  

I woke up feeling bad this morning.  My stomach has been turning and gurgling since around 2 AM.  I decided to call in to work.  I spent pretty much all morning in bed hoping not to puke.   Around midmorning, I decided to get up and attempt to feel better.  I made myself some stomach ease tea and toast and set myself up at my altar.  I lit my candles and pulled a health and healing Oracle card.  Then, decided to make and light a small health candle in  an attempt to let this pass swiftly. All the while, I had music playing, as I so often do.  Music helps me clear out any unnecessary thoughts while I'm in my safe space.  I found this new (to me) artist, Lila, and downloaded her instrumental album--if you don't know it find it! Anyway, one of her songs came on, and it made me sit still and close my eyes, almost like in meditation.  Well, something drew me to open my eyes only slightly--the flame of my candle.  It's...

  How does one lose a whole order of stuff? Let me explain--I get a monthly subscription box from  https://tamedwild.com/  .  I got my order in a few days ago.  I know what was in the order.  I know I didn't dream it coming in because I have at least the charm sitting and waiting to be put on my bracelet. I have the empty box from me opening it.  But I can't find the rest of my box!  I have looked where I opened it.  I have looked around my altar.  I looked everywhere that I would possibly have placed the stuff.   I'm going to take a breath and a break from looking and chalk it up to me not needing the contents at the moment.  I just wish I could remember.  That's the biggest problem--the not remembering.  My brain doesn't work too great since I've had trigeminal neuralgia issues. But I do feel like I have been getting stronger from the witch standpoint.  I just wish my mental state would be improving along ...

I keep a dream log.  It, like most things, are not consistent.  But y'all...I don't know if this was a dream... After work, I tend to lie down for about an hour.  Sometimes I sleep, but usually it's more a time to rest my mind and ease any stressors I may have brought home.   Yesterday was no exception.  I laid down on my bed.  My cat quickly jumped on my chest, which he tends to do when I've had a particularly stressful day.  I've been exhausted lately, so I went into saying positive affirmations about have more energy.  I don't know how long I was there with my eyes closed, because I never felt myself drift off or anything.  But when I opened my eyes, my cat wasn't there.  I mean, he was there--the weight, size, shape.  But instead of my tabby cat, I saw this red and black grid thing.  I don't know how else to explain it.  It freaked me out so much that I shoved him off of me.  He scratched my belly a little on...

The past week or so, I've been seeing more and more repetitive numbers.  I know it means something is trying to send a message.  I've looked up the meanings of the ones I see most often.   I've been trying really hard to focus on my practice recently.  Meditating, spending time w/my altar, reminding myself that everything is a blessing.  I think I've been better off for it. I've also been veiling at home.  I wish I could do it at work, too.  I may need to find a way around not being able to.  I just feel a bit lighter when I veil.   Today, I'm making a beef roast with root vegetables.  You see, starting today I'm able to celebrate Mabon.  Mabon, or Fall Equinox, technically falls on Sept. 22 this year.  However, it is celebrated between the 20 and 22.  And, with it being in the middle of the week, I've opted to cook earlier.  I made sure to research each ingredient--what they're used for in magick/what they'...

Ah, back to a bit of Magick! First off, I did what I said I would and took the weekend to get back to me.  I meditated.  I lit candles.  I set intentions.  It all felt so good!  I am still working and progressing towards accepting what may be my new normal with my face, but it's a work in progress. Now, with two storms on my doorstep, I did a candle to help protect.  Dressing the candle and setting my intentions felt SOOOOOO nice.  Watching its burn and feeling as though I'm doing something right felt wonderful.  I won't go into detail about my intentions or the spell itself, for protective reasons.  But I used both herbs and oils that I looked up that are good for protection and for storm safety.  Since Marco doesn't seem to be much of a threat anymore, I'll do my offering for Nature tomorrow most likely to ask for protection from Laura.   I still have my Reiki practice on hold.  I know one of the first "rules" is you can...

Well, it seems I have my diagnosis.  The doctor is confident it's Trigeminal neuralgia and neuropathy.     Those may not be spelled correctly.   It gets better--all of my tests were normal, which is a good thing.  However, it also means that there is no real reason as to why this started.   It gets even better--the doctor, although trying to stay positive for her patient, didn't give much hope.  She more or less said things may fade but they'll come back.  She also said that the numbness will prolly not go away. I don't think I've processed it all just yet.  I do know I was overly angry yesterday at the world.  I hated that.  I put out way too much negativity into the universe.   I go from anger to depression to nothing in moments.  And in between is pain and my brain not thinking.  I keep telling myself to just be normal.  But all of this stuff is neurological--it's brain stuff.  How can...