Cajun Witch

I have been feeling lately that my shadow work is not done.  I thought it done for a long time.  However, I've always had a feeling in the back of me that there was more.  I've felt for a while I have a past trauma, either from my childhood or my past lives, blocking me from progressing.  So, it is time to do more research and dive deeper. I'll admit I'm a bit scared.  The last workings took a lot out of me (the joys of shadow work + chronic illnesses).  But I know I need this.  It's needed not only to progress, but also to heal and grow.   Any tips?  A trip into shadow work is hard as heck, but I want to do it this time (last time it literally fell onto me like a house--pun intended).  Blessed Be.  

I woke up feeling bad this morning.  My stomach has been turning and gurgling since around 2 AM.  I decided to call in to work.  I spent pretty much all morning in bed hoping not to puke.   Around midmorning, I decided to get up and attempt to feel better.  I made myself some stomach ease tea and toast and set myself up at my altar.  I lit my candles and pulled a health and healing Oracle card.  Then, decided to make and light a small health candle in  an attempt to let this pass swiftly. All the while, I had music playing, as I so often do.  Music helps me clear out any unnecessary thoughts while I'm in my safe space.  I found this new (to me) artist, Lila, and downloaded her instrumental album--if you don't know it find it! Anyway, one of her songs came on, and it made me sit still and close my eyes, almost like in meditation.  Well, something drew me to open my eyes only slightly--the flame of my candle.  It's...

  How does one lose a whole order of stuff? Let me explain--I get a monthly subscription box from  https://tamedwild.com/  .  I got my order in a few days ago.  I know what was in the order.  I know I didn't dream it coming in because I have at least the charm sitting and waiting to be put on my bracelet. I have the empty box from me opening it.  But I can't find the rest of my box!  I have looked where I opened it.  I have looked around my altar.  I looked everywhere that I would possibly have placed the stuff.   I'm going to take a breath and a break from looking and chalk it up to me not needing the contents at the moment.  I just wish I could remember.  That's the biggest problem--the not remembering.  My brain doesn't work too great since I've had trigeminal neuralgia issues. But I do feel like I have been getting stronger from the witch standpoint.  I just wish my mental state would be improving along ...