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The final word?

 This will, most likely, be my last public post, at least for the time being.  I know I haven't posted in ages in the first place, but I'm just making it final. When I started this particular blog, I was just starting on my journey.  I wanted this blog to be my journal of the process of finding my way.  I've been working on myself, my journey, my spirituality, my craft for a year now.  And I have discovered so much yet have so much more to find. As of late, I have been writing here, but keeping it as drafts.  I find solace in putting my words down, yet them remaining only mine.  I don't call it a book of shadows.  I write many things down in various places.   In a sense, my words all around me are my book of shadows. I may someday write again for others to see.  But for now, I have grown to the point where I am selfish with my words.  They shall remain only mine to keep. Blessed be, friends.  Remember that magick is a...
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What's been going on

 Just a few things that I've been doing: I did a manifestation ritual on 11/11.  It used candles that represented health/prosperity/love/protection/self.   Since Samhain I've felt a presence when I'm at my altar area.  It's always on my right side.  I have a friend coming one day to help me be sure it's a guide and not something dark.  I don't think it is, but it's better to be sure, and she's better at that part in her practice. I bought some new Oracle cards--  Dark Mirror, Wisdom of the Night, and Dream.  I'm hoping they help me grow in different aspects of my practice.   I've been so tired after work each day.  I'm so unprepared in the mornings that I haven't been writing down my dreams.  I need to make myself write down what I remember right away so I can add them to my log later.   I did a Reiki session on my mom the other day.  It felt good to use my skills to help.  It seemed she fully enjoyed t...
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More Work

I have been feeling lately that my shadow work is not done.  I thought it done for a long time.  However, I've always had a feeling in the back of me that there was more.  I've felt for a while I have a past trauma, either from my childhood or my past lives, blocking me from progressing.  So, it is time to do more research and dive deeper. I'll admit I'm a bit scared.  The last workings took a lot out of me (the joys of shadow work + chronic illnesses).  But I know I need this.  It's needed not only to progress, but also to heal and grow.   Any tips?  A trip into shadow work is hard as heck, but I want to do it this time (last time it literally fell onto me like a house--pun intended).  Blessed Be.  
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What's in a Candle?

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I woke up feeling bad this morning.  My stomach has been turning and gurgling since around 2 AM.  I decided to call in to work.  I spent pretty much all morning in bed hoping not to puke.   Around midmorning, I decided to get up and attempt to feel better.  I made myself some stomach ease tea and toast and set myself up at my altar.  I lit my candles and pulled a health and healing Oracle card.  Then, decided to make and light a small health candle in  an attempt to let this pass swiftly. All the while, I had music playing, as I so often do.  Music helps me clear out any unnecessary thoughts while I'm in my safe space.  I found this new (to me) artist, Lila, and downloaded her instrumental album--if you don't know it find it! Anyway, one of her songs came on, and it made me sit still and close my eyes, almost like in meditation.  Well, something drew me to open my eyes only slightly--the flame of my candle.  It's...
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Lost?

  How does one lose a whole order of stuff? Let me explain--I get a monthly subscription box from  https://tamedwild.com/  .  I got my order in a few days ago.  I know what was in the order.  I know I didn't dream it coming in because I have at least the charm sitting and waiting to be put on my bracelet. I have the empty box from me opening it.  But I can't find the rest of my box!  I have looked where I opened it.  I have looked around my altar.  I looked everywhere that I would possibly have placed the stuff.   I'm going to take a breath and a break from looking and chalk it up to me not needing the contents at the moment.  I just wish I could remember.  That's the biggest problem--the not remembering.  My brain doesn't work too great since I've had trigeminal neuralgia issues. But I do feel like I have been getting stronger from the witch standpoint.  I just wish my mental state would be improving along ...
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Dream?

I keep a dream log.  It, like most things, are not consistent.  But y'all...I don't know if this was a dream... After work, I tend to lie down for about an hour.  Sometimes I sleep, but usually it's more a time to rest my mind and ease any stressors I may have brought home.   Yesterday was no exception.  I laid down on my bed.  My cat quickly jumped on my chest, which he tends to do when I've had a particularly stressful day.  I've been exhausted lately, so I went into saying positive affirmations about have more energy.  I don't know how long I was there with my eyes closed, because I never felt myself drift off or anything.  But when I opened my eyes, my cat wasn't there.  I mean, he was there--the weight, size, shape.  But instead of my tabby cat, I saw this red and black grid thing.  I don't know how else to explain it.  It freaked me out so much that I shoved him off of me.  He scratched my belly a little on...
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Repeating Numbers

The past week or so, I've been seeing more and more repetitive numbers.  I know it means something is trying to send a message.  I've looked up the meanings of the ones I see most often.   I've been trying really hard to focus on my practice recently.  Meditating, spending time w/my altar, reminding myself that everything is a blessing.  I think I've been better off for it. I've also been veiling at home.  I wish I could do it at work, too.  I may need to find a way around not being able to.  I just feel a bit lighter when I veil.   Today, I'm making a beef roast with root vegetables.  You see, starting today I'm able to celebrate Mabon.  Mabon, or Fall Equinox, technically falls on Sept. 22 this year.  However, it is celebrated between the 20 and 22.  And, with it being in the middle of the week, I've opted to cook earlier.  I made sure to research each ingredient--what they're used for in magick/what they'...
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